back!!!

OMG, it's been like... what? Two months since my last post? Yeah I got kinda lazy to log on my blogger account to type something up. Instead, I've been reading others' blogs and I'm amazed by how they could write about anything any time! Talk about talent :)

Well, the weather has changed in the sandbox, which makes me happy each time I step out of the house. I loved how the Aramco weather tower flashed 79F the other night, four more degrees down and it's the temperature I've always loved since my SF days. Too bad the cafe on Kings Road got this dating reputation, I can't sit al fresco enjoying my coffee without some weird man thinking I'm awaiting some hook-up. Arrrgh.

I think homesickness is slowly withering away my system now. My folks sat me down and talked about how they felt each time I complained about not having a normal life here in the Kingdom, despite the fact of living in Aramco. I always felt they didn't understand me, but it was truly the other way around---I didn't understand them. My selfishness blinded me from seeing how happy they were having me around after seven years of being away. Mom said that life isn't about counting friends, but having those you can count on. I guess it's easier to figure that out in this part of the world, where you can classify people's lifestyles in well-defined categories--seriously!!

On the other hand, baba had a one-on-one with me about how weirded out he felt whenever I'd worry so much about not having a man liking me. I start whining and he stops me right there. Baba said that I was beautiful and smart enough -mashallah- to attract a man from any part of the world, I just need to have that breeze of confidence around me. Baba that is never gonna happen! My clock is ticking and I only got like four years left before my wedding bells start ringing. For those who don't know, it took me six years to move on from one relationship to the next. With that in mind, baba commented that my first relationship was like puppy love and the gap was coz of university... etc.

The topic went on until the both of us decided to head out and grab something from Casper and Gambini's. Thank God the Blackberry was tame all night. The circumstances are a lot different now than it had been before. My experiences are sufficient enough to know who and what is right for me. I only worry about getting ready on time for work and completing my master's degree, I'd like to believe that the more financially stable and equally mature men are just at my fingertips. BUT, the worldly vices is the killer. Baba said that regardless of how many vices there are in the world, if God has provided this man for you, he will be protected from them all. Oh inshallah baba, inshallah! Baba wracked my head in the car to get all the worry out and I laughed hard as he did it.

Baba's wisdom: "The right man will come looking for you, don't hide under your worry."

Yeah, I enjoyed being with him coz of the insight I get. See, baba isn't the traditional type of man, he doesn't impose instead he lets you learn the lessons hard. Although I can tell he's sort of supervising my adventures, he'll allow me to test the waters but pull me up just as I'm about to drown. And by 'just as' I literally mean just as! Mom assured me that they won't setup my life as how my friends' families have done to their daughters. I'm free to choose---wisely! LOL

So cheers to my ex-boyfriend who I'm already 110% sure I won't go back to, and to my crush who hasn't dropped a hint on me this month. Yalla habibi, you two have lost your chance coz I'm now putting everything in God's and Allah's hands!

:)